Sick Bay

I need time for myself.  I really do.

One of my friends always compalint to me how people around him would ask him for all sorts of things, and he is constantly under the pressure of helping other people or prodiving sometime to others.  I didn’t understand his complaint until I found myself in the same boat recently.  What’s more funny is that there is always someone commenting on the things I’m doing when I am in the process of fulfilling some other person’s request.  It seems like no matter what I do, I am going to piss off someone.

I am pretty darn sure that I’m gonna piss off myself in the end if I keep trying to be the nice person!

I need some time for myself.  Some time away from anyone so that no one is gonna ask me for anything or comment on the things I do.

I received a letter from my friend recently.  She said she longed for a soul mate and she didn’t believe that she would find one.

I had the luxery to meet a lot of people who think similarly as myself, but I hadn’t meet someone I would call my "soul mate" until recently.  Sharing a lot of similarities in our character and personality, we became friends soon after we meet.  Having a lot of similar happenings in our lives, it didn’t take much for us to figure out why we would approach life in a very similar manner.  We are very similar down to the lines on one of our palms.  We surprised each other because our little surprise for each other turned out to be the same.  It was almost freaky to see how similar we are and how we can understand each other without saying a lot of words.

I think I am an incredibly lucky person because I have friends around the globe and I had very little trobule to communicate and to connect with the people around me.  Hearing how lonely some of my friends are, I almost feel guilty to have a number of friends who are always there to support me and to grow up with me.  Being there when you folks need me is the least I can do to thank you for being a friend.

I cherish our friendship always and forever.

A New Day Has Come - Celine Dion

A new day has…come

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don’t shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I’d make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush, love

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it’s almost blinding me
I can’t believe
I’ve been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has…come

Where it was dark now there’s light
Where there was pain now there’s joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, love

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it’s almost blinding me
I can’t believe
I’ve been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has…come

A new day has…come
Ohhh, a light… OOh

Do you ever have the feeling that something is too good to be true?  Or do you believe that things can actually be perfect, but we as human beings are not used to believing in perfection?

Maybe I am just having an illusion that things are perfect.  Maybe things are not as perfect as I think they are.  Maybe I am do not realize that things can actually be perfect.  I dunno.

I think I’m drunk!

I went to Las Vegas with a few friends in late July, and we had some great fun.  Here are a few highlights from the tip:

• Sharing a bed with my boyfriend turned out to be some great entertainment for my fiends.  Appearently I could be sleeping in a bed with 5 pillows, including a human pillow (namly my boyfriend).
• Great dumplings were for the Captain.
• I finally got a picture with the Blue Man in Las Vegas.  I got an autograph too. ^3^
• I was capable of drinking in a pub without talking non-sense to the bar tender!  Woot!
• Shopping at Victoria’s Secret was addictive.
• Captain’s guide to playing slot was proven to be accurate and useful.  It should be included in his book.
• I need another trip to Las Vegas sometime soon OMG!

I don’t normally show my picture to my friends, but I am so proud to share the picture of myself and Blue Man because I’m too over joyed!  LOL!

I went into some kind of "creative shut down" ever since I started my field practice position.  Now that I have a job, I found myself having the freedom and money to get back on track with photography again.  I had a photo shoot on June 17 and it was one of the best photo shoots I’ve ever done.

The photo shoot was put together in a rush because I suddenly had the urge to take photos during the beginning of that week, and I had a hell of a time trying to coordinate studio booking and all the other stuff while I was in a training course for the entire week.  I was extremely anxious the night before the shoot because I was so afraid of screwing up.  However, things just worked out somehow, and I got some wonderful shots from the shoot.

I found myself approaching my craft in a new and different way, and I imagine that would be a great experince for any artist.  It was also a great experience to be able to walk into a shoot knowing that I am going to have a great time.  I’ve taken pictures for many people who would like to be in the industry.  They have a lot of expectations towards themselves and my team, and it sometimes restrict me or even prevent me from making great photographs because I feel like I have to play according to rules.  In this photo shoot, I walked in with a rough idea of what I want to get, but I had no idea how I would get there.  I’ve never photograph this person before, and I don’t even know him all that well.  It took a while for us to warm up, but we finally got a bunch of great photos towards the end of the photo shoot and both of us were pleased with the results.  I’m glad that I took some riskes in this photo shoot; they certainly paid off.

I look forward to spending more time in photography again.  Please visit myself for updates as I will upload pictures as often as I could.

XOXO

Kes

I’ve been really busy with work lately.  YES, I said WORK!

I got a field placement position for my Criminology study at SFU in January, and that kept me busy until April.  Towards the end of the field practice, my supervisor told me that the unit was interested in hiring me on for a three month contract work for a new project the unit was starting.  Just as I signed the contract, the project leader asked if I would be interested in interviewing for a higher position.  They needed an information administrator for the entire duration of the project.  I got hired thirty minutes after the panel interview.  And here I am, two weeks after the end of my university career, I am working as an information administrator of this project our team is working on, and I am supposed to supervise two people. XD

I did not expect getting a job would be that easy.  I guess I really lucked out, and my computer study from God-knows-how-many-years-ago is finally paying off.  My photography study is not going to the trash.  I volunteered to take pictures for a co worker of mine who is working on a really exciting project.  More details on that is coming!

I hope everyone is doing well.  I miss you all.

I was sick since January 9.  High fever (no kidding 103 degree) following by sore throat and then stuffy nose and fevers that came back once in a while.  The doctor said it’s a common flu.  Common my ass!  If I got this sick from a common flu, an uncommon flu would kill me for sure.  My room has been my Sick Bay for the pass 7 days.  I bet you it is full of gems by now, so think twice before you come in.  All kinds of medicines can be found on my desk, but none is really gonna cure me, said the doctor.  Virual infection can’t be cured with medicined. ><  The doctor even told me that AIDS is also a virual infection.  Gee, thanks!  My boyfriend is probably really happy about the fact that I couldn’t talk in the past few days ’cause no one is gonna bitch at him. XD  I couldn’t work on my photography project.  Actually I don’t feel very bad about it.  In fact, I am considering taking a break from photography.  I have been really under-performed in the area of photography lately, and I need to take some time to rejuvenate and replenish my creativity.

I will talk to you guys again when I feel better.

Homework is going to a point where they are out of control!  Papers are due one after another.  Thank God this is going to be my last semester at school.  My next semester is a field practice term which means I will be working instead of sitting in the classroom, and then I am DONE!  I will talk to you guys in two weeks when my holiday starts!

XOXO

PS - My did better on my mental disorder paper then I thought. O.o

I am taking a course on mental disorder and law, and this is a typical lecture quote…

"We cannot held someone criminally responsible on account of mental disorder (NCRMD) because they are suffering from a disease of the mind.  Psychopathy is a mental disorder according to the Diagnostic and Statistica Manual, but most of the prison population process psychopathic traits such as anti-social and low level of arousal.  Should they be held not criminally responsible and be treated in a mental hospital instead?"

Seriously, do you think I will become mentally disordered before I finished this class? @_@
It’s for me to know and for you to find out…